Monday, August 10, 2009 at10:46 AM

I will stay strong.. I must stay strong.. For the sake of my friends.. My family..And my ambitions.. I want to live. Yet multiple occurences are starting to destroy that little spark of hope that's fueling me.. What are you getting from doing this to me, hm..? Would it make you happy if i ceased to exist..? Would it make you happy if i existed but with a disabled body..? Or would it make you happy if i laid at your feet all my life and obliged to your every need.. Come on, tell me what is it that you want..? I can't take anymore of your torture.. Spare me from your arrogant nature, would you..? Because i wouldn't stay silent for long and i'm sure you wouldn't be able to take it when my patience finally reaches it's limit..
Have you made up your mind..? As to what to say or what to do..? Of course you haven't.. What was i expecting..? A clear and quick answer from you..? I had seen this coming, but i had let my ignorance rule my mind.. Now i'm paying the price for that overwhelming ignorance.. And i'm not going to resist the consquences..For i know perfectly well that i deserve the pain.. Yet i did this all only for you..And when i ask for an answer, you're always beating around the bush..

Ola amigos.
Feeling much better today. Maybe it's because i'm going out later. Realllllly looking forward to entering Erielle's house for the first time. I've got a feeling her house is much nicer than mine. xD And He Tong should be happy. He'll finally have some male company[Erielle's younger brother]. xD. Hmm so, apparently SY is bringing her laptop. Wonder if her Laptop is pink too.. That girl is OBSESSED with pink. Her bag is pink. Her handphone is pink. Even the pouch in which she keeps her handphone is pink! I guess she'll be the happiest person in the world if Mdm Shanti[Principle] changed out uniforms to pink. Though, i wouldn't be escatic as she would be. Definitely not.. Not that i don't like pink.. But seeing TOO much pink would make my head and eyes hurt. I swear to god i'll burn the school down if our uniforms' color is changed to pink, which obviously wouldn't happen in another thousand years! Okay well, i think it's very obvious that i'm feeling happier today right..? That's a good thing!

Funny thing is, i shouldn't be happy. My mother isn't talking to me because of some stupid quarral we had over the television.. And, might i add, SHE made such a small arguement into such a big thing. Sometimes i really wonder if she really is 44 or not.. Ugh..=_=.. And dad's been a little naggy but i have to say.. He's much more supportive than my mother is.. The nagging part is well.. Expected.. He's 58 years old.. So it isn't exactly a surprise..

Anyways, i'm broke..My sister's broke..And my parents' are broke.. Could things get much worser than it already is..? Well in the case of money that is.. Ugh, ugh, triple ugh! =__= I hate this fucking thing called money.. But sadly, i've no choice but to need it because i'll have no life without money.. Curse the idiot who created money and it's system.. Or whatever you call it..

And btw, i'm sorry if i'm using very cheem english.. I've been typing in cheem english nowadays..No idea why..But come to think of it, I LOVE TYPING like that.. It makes me feel so.. So sophisticated.. xD Weird, i know.. And btw, the first two paragraphs in blue and purple is just something i randomly typed.. Dunno why..o.O Just came to my mind so i typed it.. Anyways, i guess i'll just take off now.. Bye Bee~!

xoxo
Geetha