You just don't get it, do you? Why don't you understand how i'm feeling?! I get angry so easily, i hardly feel like talking and joking, i'm losing my sleep slowly and i just don't feel the interest in doing anything any more.. I don't feel like reading, writing, studying, listening to music, talking, watching tv.. Nothing.. I just don't feel the.. The life i had within me.. Yet you don't see all these, do you..? You just happily assume that i'm being stubborn and that i need some attitude lessons or whatever people call it.. Well you know what i really need? A fucking break! A break from all your ranting and anger and just a little bit of attention and concern.. But you just refuse to give it to me, right? 'Cause you think YOU'RE the one who needs all that and I'M the one who has to provide it.. I'm really getting sick and tired of being your toy.. Vend your anger on me when you feel like it, throw me aside when you don't need me and use me when you need something.. Can't you see what all these studies, problems, atmosphere is doing to me..? I'm feeling suicidal for heaven's sake! Every time i go to school, i have to put on a mask so that i don't become the downer in the group. I TRY to tell you that i'm stressed and you tell me that i'm just imagining things.. So when I'M stressed i'm imagining things and when YOU'RE stressed, it's real..? Fine, you have your problems too! I know! I never said i didn't, right? But YOU'RE not the only person who's got problems okay? I've got them too.. I wish you would just pause and think about me for a moment or two rather than just thinking about yourself and your problems.. I don't want to lose myself to depression or anything, but it seems like you're pushing me into it.. I want to excel in my studies and you're not helping.. Come on, give me a break.. Try and understand what i'm going through also.. The life's being slowly drained out of me and i really don't wanna lose myself.. Wish you would understand that and show some mercy.. Why i ask for mercy and not just demand for what i want..? 'Cause i love you and i can't bring myself to scream at you or hurt you..
Yea, life's been pretty harsh on me recently.. I think i'm finally snapping and i reeeeally need a break.. But you know what's the worst part..? I can't take a break cause of my Final Year Exams.. *Sigh*.. I'm getting sick of everything around me and about life.. I'm just losing interest in everything already.. I can hardly concentrate during lessons and that's not a good thing.. Hopefully i'll do well for my Final Year Exams.. Just a week or two and then i can relax.. And i can take the break i so badly need.. But till then, i just have to keep myself together and keep going.. My fuel: my friends.. They are always there in school to make me smile.. [: LOVE YOU GUYS. Well, i'm really hoping to score on my English, Maths, MTL and Art. Combine Science and Combine Humanities are the hard ones but hopefully i'll pass, eh? Yea, hopefully.. Well, i guess i really have nothing much to say.. Soooo i'll just take off.. Bye Bee~! xoxo Geetha
Thursday, September 24, 2009 at9:23 AM
Ola Amigos. [: What's up..? ;D Haha, you're probably wondering what am i doing on blogger at 9:25am while i'm supposed to be having lessons in the school. Well, i am in school. And noooo, i'm not skipping lessons. We're in the SCL for art so i'm just posting while reasearching. ;D So, i've been thinking and i think i should really stop bothering about evrything that's well.. Bothering me! Haha.. I mean, it only spoils my mood when i think about the downside of my life. I can't just let these stuff bring me down, can i? No way. Haha. Guess where i'm getting the positive vibez from? From the one and only Shanette! I mean, look at her! She NEVER[not kidding] frowns man. It's so damn bloody hard to make her sad. No matter how much you scold her or discriminate her she just keeps on smiling. o.O And when asked how she just keeps smiling she says it's just part of her nature. Wooo~! Shanette, you're my new role model! xD Well, i'm sitting beside her right now. Letting Zilah type first. Zilah: I LIKE PURPLE! do u like it too>>> everyone say HELLLOOOOO!! hehe..kk let geetha type..weeeeeeeee!!!!
Shieh Ying: Ohaiyo people from blogger,how are you guys?Hope you are fine (: Have a good day! Erielle: HOLA! :) hello geetha :) thanks for helping me thinking :p adios && yeah. iheartyou :p Shanette: im the last one!! i love rc cars and so many cars!!! hahaha!!! Yo, yo again. Lol. Weirdos. xD Erielle, iheartyou too~! And shanette, you and your cars forever! -.- Oh ya, did i mention that Shanette was still smiling when typing in here. xD No? Well, now you know. Muahaha. xD I'm listening to songs with her! Micheal Jackson's They Don't Really Care About Us. If only He Tong and Divi were here, could have let them type too. Haiya. Wasted. Nevermind. Next time lerh. HE TONG AND DIVI must type on my blog soon, soon. ;D Okay, now i'm just typing pure crap. Well, don't blame me. I'm suddenly feeling hyper. No idea why. Just do. o.O Maybe i need a good slap to bring the hyperness down? Who's ready to give me a slap and get one in return? ;D Okay, i should go back to my research, aye? Bye bee~!
xoxo Geetha
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 at6:19 PM
Ola peepz.[:
Yea, yea. I know i keep taking big, big breaks before i post again. But hey! Sometimes a girl's just lazy, you know? Well, maybe a little bit more often than sometimes, but you get what i'm saying don't you..? For those who don't, i'm just trying to say that i'm a lazy ass. xD Hahah, anyways moving on to what happened today. Met up with Erielle and HT at Erielle's bus stop. Took bus then walked to school.[Yea, sounds like a really long trip, but i'm the only one who had a really LONG journey since i live in HOUGANG. x__x'' ] Meet SY, Divi, Shanette and Zilah in school. Went to assembly. Divi and Ke Xin did a presentation infront of the whole school. Wooo~! We need to appreciate those two, you know? Yea sure, they made a few mistakes here and there but come on, who doesn't? How many of us would actually have the guts to go up onto the stage and speak to the whole school, hm..? So let's all appreciate their efforts! [: Had Chem lesson[supposed to be CME lesson but was replaced by Chem. Thanks Mdm Siti.] and did lots of.. Erm, Chemistry! Duh. Lol. [: Then recess, but we spent it in the library. Managed to post answers to question 12 on forum in 15 minutes, lol! ;D Am i awesome or what? Haha. :p Okay, i won't praise myself too much, kay? <_<''>g half an hour to write out a speech about the given topic. Finished it pretty quickly cause the test was easy. Oh and as for the speech, the words just came automatically as i wrote. xD Weird, but cool! Maths was, as usual, quiet and tensed. After school still had to stay back! Chem and Geog extra lesson. x__x'' Had fun during chem though! We learned so much! He Tong and Erielle answered like as if they were A level students. A few of us asked questions that were beyond our expected standards. ;D Woo hoo to us! Geog extra lesson was just.. Well, okay la. Was listening to song and slacking 'cause i decided to just do the worksheet at home. Was having very bad migraine. But got better once i boarded 222. [: Thanks Shieh Ying for the 10 cents! Then He Tong and i waited for Zilah's bus to arrive so that we could send her off before we headed back home. Well, her bus came just when our bus was about to leave. Lol. All three of us run lor![Though, Zilah ran different way, HT and i ran different way.] Took 25, talk talk to He Tong till his bus stop came. Then went back to listening to music for the rest of the journey. Oh, i did see my niece in the interchange before i took 25. I only have one thing to say.. She was way way DIFFERENT from what she used to be. Lol. Zilah and HT should know what i'm referring to. Right so, reached home. Relax for a while, went to bath and change and everything. Then now i'm just blogging. [: Oh, oh! I started watching Gossip Girl a few days ago. Managed to watch till Episode 6 of season one. Yea, yea, i'm slow. But i only recently started watching eh! [: And i'm already addicted! Blair's a bitch[no offence] but she's admirable. Chuck's a creep but he's a good friend and also admirable. Serena's just really unique and sweet. Dan is well, trying his best to be funny and is also pretty sweet. Jenny is definitely a Blair in the making! And Nate.. Nate's just stupid, getting himself into deep trouble and etc. <_<''>, you can't deny the fact that he's really, really handsome. Lol. xD I mean, come on. Who would be able to resist him[The guy in the picture above.] I know i can't. Lol. So i can't wait for EOY to just end so that i can relax again and go back to watching Gossip Girl! ;D Erielle, i'll catch up soon!
"And who am i? That's a secret i'll never tell. You know you love me. xoxo Gossip Girl."
I mean, gosh! The way the girl speaks is just, wooo! Lol. And noooooo, i'm not lesbo. -.-" Eh, i'll just put up more pictures for you guys to see.[: From Gossip Girl! Now i'll take off. Bye bee~! xoxo Geetha
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Jenny.[:
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Monday, September 21, 2009 at10:40 AM
Yea, i haven't posted for quite sometime. Well, i was a little caught up with certain things, aye..? So, life's been pretty tough recently and i don't exactly feel like sharing about it. It'll only spoil my mood. So my weekend was boring, as always. Didn't do anything much. Postponed study session with Ben to Wednesday. Hopefully then my friends can come also. [: Am currently eating chocolate cream roll for breakfast. Delicious! ;D Haha.. I guess i don't have anything much to say today.. Just can't wait for school tomorrow.. Yea, yea.. You're probably wondering 'Is Geetha Actually Saying She Can't Wait For School?'. Well, yep. I can't wait for school tomorrow. Just wanna see my friends and laugh with them. Friends are the best remedy. Oh and i need to really study study study. x__x'' Final year exams are coming! Damn scared.. Urgh.. Hopefully i can pass ALL my subjects like i did for CA2.. Just have to study hard and pray that i'll pass.. Right so, i've got nothing else to say so i'll just take off. Bye bye.
xoxo Geetha
Monday, September 14, 2009 at3:31 PM
It was you who did it, yet you blame us. You taught me a valuable lesson. I shall keep this in mind. The face i once loved to see, Is no longer the same as it used to be.
Yea, Blogger's being the bitch it is again.. Sick of it! Argh! And yes, i'm bloody pissed off today.. Don't ask.. Just in a very bad mood right now.. Yea, short post, i know. But i've got nothing more to say.. So i'll just go.. Bye bye..
xoxo Geetha
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 at2:36 PM
New Favorite Song! Colbie Caillat's Fallin' For You And Here's The Lyrics! Enjoy! [:
I don’t know but I think I maybe Fallin’ for you Dropping so quickly Maybe I should Keep this to myself Waiting ’til I Know you better
I am trying Not to tell you But I want to I’m scared of what you’ll say So I’m hiding what I’m feeling But I’m tired of Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’m fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here And you hold my hand Pull me towards you And we start to dance All around us I see nobody Here in silence It’s just you and me
I’m trying Not to tell you But I want to I’m scared of what you’ll say So I’m hiding what I’m feeling But I’m tired of Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’m fallin’ for you
Oh I just can’t take it My heart is racing The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found ya I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it I want you all around me And now I just can’t hide it I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
I’m fallin’ for you
Ooohhh Oh no no Oooooohhh Oh I’m fallin’ for you
at1:40 PM
Ola Amigos. [:
Yea, it's the second day of meh one week holiday! [: So far, it's been okay la. Just a few worries about this and that. A few laughs a little bit of anger here and there. Oh and boredom all through out! xD I'm a very bored person, can't help it. Lol, so i've been looking for a blog skin that i like for days and days! I just can't seem to find anything that i really like. Ugh, it's so hard. =_=. Oh yea, blogger is working properly again. Finally! Lol. Okay, back to the blog skin. Well yea, i'm not gonna give up just yet. I shall persevere! xD Well, last Saturday had the Environmental Club thing. We had to go to Republic Poly and help host the competition. I think i had mentioned about this in an earlier post. Hold on, let me check.....*After two minutes.* Oh.. I hadn't mentioned it. Well, now you know! xD Yea, so headed to Republic Poly. Had a briefing. We were assigned roles. Huda, Damien and i had to usher Mdm Shanti! x__x'' Unlucky much. So we were busy, busy, busy. But we had fun too! I finally saw how much Andrew despised Damien. xD Well, not his fault though. Damien can be a little annoying sometimes. Bleh, cracked jokes. Ran around the areas doing this and that. Oh and i had to get on stage to help with the prize presentation. Usher Mdm Shanti to the stage then pass her the trophies to give to the winners. Andrew and Donald Duck[Nurul Shafiqah] were the MCs. They did a tremendous job. YOU GUYS WERE AWESOME! [: Shieh Ying took like LOADS of pictures. They are all on Face book. Go check them out. [: Oh, did i mention that i was teasing Huda and Khai? xD Huda, about the judges and Khai, about her height. Haha. It was seriously funny! We headed back home at around 5 plus i think. Fell asleep in the bus. x3 Oh, we saw Mr Muhammad! It was his last day at Ping Yi last Friday and he didn't tell us! -.- Anyways we took pictures with him and Mrs Toh. Said hi to Mr Toh and their sons. Headed home after that. Took 25 with He Tong. Bleh, talked crap on the bus.
Hmm so, today nothing much la. Woke up, eat, read, watch Television and now using com to blog. [: Muahaha. I feel really random today. Don't know why. Oh, oh! Going cycling tomorrow! With Shieh Ying, Erielle, Divi and Shanette. [: Can't wait baby! It's been quite some time since i cycled so i'm excited. We're not going to Erielle's house after that though. Thought could go, but nevermind. [: I'll go some other time. I think i should take off now, aye? Bye bee~! [:
xoxo Geetha
CONGRATS TO CHESTNUT DRIVE SECONDARY SCHOOL FOR WINNING THE SENIOR CATEGORY AND CONGRATS TO NEW TOWN PRIMARY FOR WINNING THE JUNIOR CAT
P.S. Green is the new hot color in my world. [:
Thursday, September 3, 2009 at2:13 PM
Ola Amigos.
'Allo people. [: So, i know i haven't blogged for about five days so i'll just say what's been going on kay?
August 31st: Teacher's day celebrations and ACES day. [: Morning we were doing aerobics as part of the ACES day. Funny sia! xD Lol, we had fun. Then we had lessons for a while. During chemistry period, we used the one hour to show Mrs Toh and Mr Mohammad the class video [credits to HT and Junior], read out the poems for them and gave them hugs and presents. [: Our surprises reduced Mrs Toh to happy tears! The moment was soooooo sweet! We're glad to see you happy Mrs Toh! And Oh yea, congrats on getting the caring teacher award! You deserve it Mrs Toh! Congrats to Ms Wong too on getting the MOST caring teacher award! [:
Went to my primary school with Kirah and Bao Bao after that. Lol, Bao Lin is still the same lerh! Oh, but i'm taller than her now! Haha. Her first reaction when she saw me was "Wow... You're tall.." Lol. Went to SACPS and went around the school looking for our teachers. Found Mrs Gomez! Oh and Mrs Dawn Tan too. We were talking, cracking jokes and laughing our heads off. They haven't changed much. Saw Mrs Ravi and Ms Annie and Ms Foo too! [: Wooo! Saw Aunt Chris too. [:
September 1st: Holiday. Nothing much happened. ._. Just stayed home and was being bored, as usual. xD
September 2nd: HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY SHIEH YING. Met up with Erielle then took bus to school. Saw Divi, Shanette and Shieh Ying playing volley ball so we joined them. He Tong was playing too! [: Ariya also was there. Played. Made the birthday girl[SY] run around. xD Had classes after that. Camwhored during recess. Pictures are on FB. Had 2 and a 1/2 hours of maths..x___x'' Brain was dying! Went to eat then went to harvest kankung for EnV club. [: Had sooooo much fun! Lol. We cleaned the place up all. Packed so many plastics of kankung! One plastic for all of us and gave the rest to the cleaner uncles and aunties. Played leapfrog after that! Lol, so damn funny! xD He Tong fell during one try while he was leaping over me. My fault though! I accidently moved a little so he fell! xD SORRY DUDE! I know though he acted macho, he was hurt. xD And i was right! He had a scratch. Act macho-macho only la the fella. Lol. We all know that you are strong He Tong, don't overdo it or you might just become the next drama queen.. No wait, drama KING! Anyways, had fun! Then we took more pictures! Go look at the pictures on FB! http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1750291372&ref=profile
Kay, so i think i should better take off. I'll post again some time soon! Bye bee~! [: xoxo Geetha.
P.S. Blogger's STILL being an assh*le. -.-
To Mrs Toh and Mr Mohammad: Thank you for being our form teachers! We appreciate your every effort to mold our futures! There are no words for me to explain my appreciation for you guys. So far, 2009 has been the best year in my secondary school life and that's mostly because of you guys. 312, the best class i've ever been in. Thank you Mrs Toh and Mr Mohammad for being the best teachers a student could ever ask for. I hope to see you guys again next year. If by god's grace you two become our teacher's again next i'll be the happiest person. Lol. [: And no, i'm not being dramatic. Just stating a statement of fact, aye? [:
Biography
Name's Geetha.(:
071294 is the day I first cried
Single/Attached
I’m not perfect. I’m not completely useless either.
I’m just a girl wanting to succeed in life.:D
Love me? I’ll love you too. Hate me? I’ll hate you too(:
Currently studying in PingYiSec.
I ♥ anything that's got to do with chocolate.
