Tuesday, November 17, 2009 at5:42 PM

Write-ups i suppose. (:


Jenny slid past the large doors and into the almost empty cafe, bright green hued eyes wandering around the area expectantly. A small smile hovered over the edges of the girl's lips as she slid into one of the empty booths. The 23 year old girl was dressed rather formally tonight. Her body clad in an ebony dress that fell a few inches above her knees. Her feet were shoved into a pair of classy, black heels that complemented the girl's dress pleasantly. Jenny's raven curls hung loosely around her shoulder, stray strands of hair that fell over her face tuck behind her ears. The girl raised her index finger to push her spectacles up the bridge of her nose, her gaze fixed on the menu that laid flat on the table in front of her. She picked it up with her long, thin fingers, eyes scanning for something that would suit her appetite. As soon as her mind was made up on what she wanted to have for dinner, she set the menu down, waving towards the waiter who stood by the counter, looking at her expectantly. She gestured him forward, lips turned up at the corners into a small smile. "I'll have the mushroom ravioli," she said, her voice soft and polite. The waiter nodded towards the girl, writing down her order on a piece of paper he held. "Is there anything else that i could get you, miss?" he questioned. She shook her head lightly, waving him off and the waiter set off to get her her dinner.




Okay, well, i'll continue the 'write-up' when i'm on again.
xoxo
Geetha

If there's anything i need right now, it's a listening ear..

at5:30 PM

So yea, i had taken another long break before posting again. But bleh, i needed that break, anyway. But still, sorry.. I'm gonna be updating more, since it's the holidays.. And well, as i had mentioned in the post before, life's being a fucking bitch. Sorry 'bout the profanities, but i can't help it.. I really, really need to relieve some of that anger and depression i'm feeling.. And what other way than ranting on my blog, right? I mean, this is, after all, my personal heaven. Or so i think..

Well, on with a few details i haven't mentioned.. Ping Yi EnV club won third prize for the Clean and Green fashion show. The one we had been designing recycled clothes for. Our hard-work paid off i suppose. Oh and Ping Yi EnV club won the clean and green(or whatever you call it) competition at eastpoint mall. Congrats to us.

Oh and well, i'm thinking of doing a few short write ups on here. You know, to just do what i love doing.. Writing.. Well, read it once i've got it up. I'm welcoming both negative and positive comments so that i can improve on what i can. Please and thank you.

xoxo
Geetha

Life's such a bitch..

at5:05 PM

Hey people..

Yea, i'm not exactly in the best mood today.. Life's been being a bitch really.. I'm not gonna go into details so yea.. Well, but i'm warning you, this isn't going to be a oh-so happy post.. I'm gonna be ranting a lot.. So don't say i didn't warn you..

I'm really, really trying to keep my family together.. But everything i do is just firing back against me, you know? SHE thinks i'm selfish and another thinks.. Well, i don't know what she's thinking, but i bet it's not something good.. I just don't get it.. Don't they see how this is affecting me..? Fine, let's not talk about me.. Let's talk about him. He's sick for goodness sake.. And the least we could do to make him forget about his pain is to keep him happy.. Yet look at them.. Being so immature, fighting and fighting.. What are you two fighting about anyway? Don't you see that you're just adding on to his pain? Don't you see that you two are making us depressed too?

When she said that to me i felt so bloody broken.. What else is there for her to say? What else could she say that could make me feel more worse than i already feel? She doesn't care about me anymore? That's what she said.. What's the point of fighting anymore after that and all else that she's said.. What's point of striving to make her proud after those words she threw at me..?

Maybe if i went away life would be better for them? Because i can't help feeling responsible for what's happening.. I mean, if i never existed would they be fighting now? Maybe if i just shut up and never talked again, they would feel better? Make them stop fighting? What is there that i can do to make them stop?

I'm 15.. I'm useless.. I've always been useless, haven't i? Either that or maybe i'm just causing problems.. I'm just making life harder for them, aren't i? I'm just an extra burden on their shoulders, aren't i..?

There's nothing that i can do besides going away for good to stop this.. What other option is there..? I feel so.. So sick.. So depressed.. It hurts so much to see them all hurt and be depressed.. It's a depressing fact that i'm useless and there isn't anything that i can do to make things right.. My life's falling apart.. And so is my _ _ _ _ _ _..

GIVE ME A BREAK DAMN IT. I'M FALLING APART. I'M.. I'M DEPRESSED. I'M SNAPPING. And all they can do is think about how everything's affecting them and how depressed they are.. Look at him.. Don't they pity him? He's stuck in the middle.. He's sick.. Yet he's trying to be strong for me.. For them.. He's going to work despite the physical and emotional torture.. For himself? No. For them and me? Yes.. At least take pity on him.. The least they could do is open their eyes and see.. And everything else will fall into place.. How do i know? It's common sense.. The whole problem's occurring because they are so blind to everything around them..

For once, stop thinking about yourselves and look at us.. For once, think about others rather than just yourself and your own emotions.. For once, make a right decision.. For once, do something right..

Poems..

Friday, November 6, 2009 at10:07 AM

I guess i'll just type a poem or two to kill time, eh? (:


The clock keeps ticking but i can't make up my mind
Should i make the first move? Would it be fine?
But everytime i approach him, wanting to tell him how i feel
I forget the words and struggle to believe that he is real

That breathtaking smile knocks me off my feet
This is so unfair, i wish i could be freed
Why can't he just make the first move?
Or is he really just oblivous to the obvious truth?









Everyday is always a new beginning
Life's definitely not about winning or losing
Live in the present and for the future
Forget the past even though it might be a torture

Don't be afraid to do what you want
There's nothing that can't be done
It's your life and you can only live it one time
So don't let others rule it, make what you have of that time




Yea, my poems might not be that good la. But that's 'cause i'm having a hard time finding a good inspiration these days. I just feel so.. So empty.. Liek i'm missing something. Like i'm in need of something.. But i just can't put a finger on what exactly that 'something' is.. I just seem to have nothing much to write about..
Okay, i'm ranting too much. xD I'll just take off. Bye bee~!

xoxo
Geetha

Yo,Yo,Yo

at9:51 AM

Ola Amigos.

So today's my last day at Temasek Poly and i'm currently typing from a computer lab. (: Yesterday was quite an interesting day. Interviewed Julia(my mentor). The video turned out quite okay la. Though, one part of the video was super funny. xD I'll be uploading the video on facebook once i get home today. Yesterday i had met up with Ben, He Tong, Shawn and Junior at bedok interchange. Went to buy birthday present for Julia. I bought for her a cute teddy bear. (: Then went to the DBS bank to deposit our money. But i decided not to deposit. But Ben and Junior did. Actually, Junior got unlucky with the machine. It swallowed his ATM card and his 60 dollars. He looked super duper stressed! Luckily we sorted things out. Bus back home with He Tong after that.

So today is okay so far. Passed the gift to Julia and she seemed happy. [: Took pictures with all the buddies. (: Gonna be leaving at 11 for the 'closing ceremony'. *Sigh*. The atatchment's ended so quickly. Wished it lasted longer.

Well, i guess i should better take off now. Bye bee~! [:

xoxo
Geetha

I'm back! ;D

Tuesday, November 3, 2009 at6:28 PM

Ola amigos!

I'm finally back after a looooooooooooooooooong disappearance. Sorry about that, eh? I was super busy and also lazy. xD So, school has finally ended and i'm kinda relived. Why? 'Cause i don't exactly have to study much anymore. (: My final year results were okay la. Got 3rd in class and 6th in the level. Do you know what that means? Money! xD Well actually it's a bursary, but still money! Okay, anyways, i had been chosen for the Temasek Polytechnic attachment and today was my second day there. The place is huge! Like super huge! I'm under the business process and system engineering course. BZE for short. My mentor's name is Julia and she's super adorable. Lol. She's 17 years old, i think. xD And then there's the other mentors. Chloe, Han Yan and Stephanie. They all are so friendly. Oh then there's Julia's friends Tatcha(Pronounced as TA-SHA!), Ralph and Marcus. Oh the engineering school itself has got two canteens man! Huge, huge canteens! Ooooooooooooh and the food there is, YUMMY! Let me repeat, it was yummy!! Oh and there's a 11 story library there! 11 STORY library! I swear i can live in that place for one week if they allowed me to! xD Anyways, moving on. Today was my second day. Not bad la the day. Managed to learn something and help Julia answer a MCQ question. xD Yes, i answered a poly student's tutorial question. So after the lessons, went for karaoke with Chloe, SY, Han Yan, Christie, Leena. Lol, had fun. (: And right now, i'm uploading the pictures i took into facebook. So go check 'em out if you want to. I'll take off now. Bye bee~!

xoxo
Geetha

ps. I'll try to update more often. (: