Saturday, July 4, 2009 at8:18 PM
Could you be any worse than this..? I hate to say it but aren't you just a true bitch..? What have i not done for you..? I treated you so nicely and don't
deny the fact that i'm still treating you so nicely despite how you treat me.. I'm not asking you to treat me like a queen.. Just treat me like a friend and not
a slave... I have to be there to keep you company when you're alone and when you have the others to be with you, you shove me away..? I have to be nice to you
and musn't leave you out, but you can leave me out..? Don't give a damn about me..? You can get angry when i'm not being a good friend and i can't get angry
since you never are a good friend... It's partly my fault.. I shouldn't have been so lenient to you.. I shouldn't have let you get the better of me.. Yet do you know
why i keep quiet every time you were being a bitch to me..? Because you're my friend... I just can't bring myself to scold you though i know perfectly well that
you truly deserve it.. But my patience too has it's limit.. I can't just let you keep using me and shoving me away then using me again.. I won't let you do it..
Maybe i can't bring myself to scold you.. But i can avoid you.. I'll avoid you and happily pay the price for it.. Even if the price is losing some other friends..
I'm ready to pay the price and i will pay it... And you shall finally learn your lesson.. The boat in which you sail so proudly shall sink.. The mask which you
hide behind will be torn.. Mark my words, dear friend.. Mark my words........
Gah.. I'm in such a foul mood.. People just get on my nerves.. To tell you the truth, everyone is getting on my nerves... It's not fair for just one person to put me in such a bad mood.. Not fair at all.. What am i to do..? My life isn't always as easy as my parents think it is.. And these stuff just makes my already bad mood swings even worse.. I used to be crazier than usual during the monthly cycle.. But look at me now.. I'm going around, throwing tantrums at people and letting the foulness of my mood leak into my actions.. I've been rude to my parents.. I'm not talking to my sister properly.. Anger keeps taking it's toll on me.. And guess what..? I've gone and fell down two days ago.. Now my left hand is swollen and bloody painful.. Might be going KK tomorrow.. My parents are worried 'cause i've fractured my left hand twice before.. Then there's quite a number of birthdays coming up.. Ben's.. He Tong's.. Zilah's.. Mrs Toh's.. Ms Jew's.. Zilah and i have made plans to celevrate their birthday.. SY and Erielle are helping too.. We're meeting up on Monday to go Tampinese.. I'm not going to let them down and back out because of my own problems... So i'll just go and hopefully my foul mood doesn't show... Besides i'm counting on Zilah to make me smile throughout the whole day... Zilah;s the most capable of doing that.. I'm counting on you Zilah.. And SY... And Erielle.. Okay.. I guess i'll take off now.. Bye bee~!
xoxo
Geetha
P.S. I typed this whole post with only one hand, my right hand. Don't i deserve claps..?
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