Saturday, August 8, 2009 at5:23 PM
Ola people..
I've been feeling really, really down since i woke up.. Actually i've been feeling down since yesterday.. It just got worse today.. Been thinking a little suicidally today.. I have no idea what's wrong with me.. Or maybe i do just that i don't want to accept it.. I really shouldn't have said it.. I should have just kept my mouth shut and be silent about it.. Ofcourse i don't stand a chance right..? Ofcourse not.. What was i thinking..? I shouldn't have..
Class conflicts have been getting to me a little.. Hopefully the class will come to terms with the truth about the changes in their attitudes.. And hopefully we'll see some sense too.. Being the best is not important..Not at all.. But being as one is important.. We have to keep that in mind.. Right, i'm not going to start up another lecture about the class so let's move on..
Maybe i should talk to someone..? Someone i trust can help me..? Or i should i just stay silent and keep it to myself..? But the more i keep it to myself the more the weight on my shoulders gets heavier.. It's not a very nice feeling you know..? One of the reasons why i've been thinking a little suicidally.. God damn it.. Bleh.. I'm so sorry about this post being so gloomy..But this is where i can let go of my burdens indirectly.. Well not completely let got of my burdens but at least the weight is lifted a little.. I'll feel better, right..? Or maybe i wouldn't.. I have no idea..
Guess i really, really shouldn't have.. Sorry if i had freaked you out.. I know i should have kept my mouth shut about it.. I was acting on impulse.. Stupidity is part of my character.. But what i said was the truth.. I'm wasn't kidding.. Bleh..
Guess i'll just take off right now..Bye bye peepz..
xoxo
Geetha
