Kryptonite

Wednesday, September 1, 2010 at5:16 PM

If i'm Superman, then you're my kryptonite. (:
Translation: You're my weakness.

Yeap, that phrase up there is actually my FB status right now. Hee~ Sooo. Well, i was reading through my posts the other night and i realized that it's been a rather long time since i sounded like a love-struck girl who loved to write totally cheesy things and what not. Damn, how embarrassing. Lol. Then again, i was 15 then and 15 now (Though, i'll be turning 16 in about three months time). I can't help it. (: What kind of a girl would i be if i didn't sound love-struck now and then, eh? So, i've decided to rant about 'love' today. Muahaha. Don't like it? Here's the solution: See that red box at the top right-hand corner of the page with a big cross in it? Click on it and you wouldn't have to read this post. :D

Right, so, let us begin. It's amazing how i used to like a certain someone a little too much even though i knew perfectly well that i didn't have a chance with him. Totally stupid of me. But at least i've gotten over it now. (: Honestly, i have. Come to think of it, i haven't had time for anything related to love. I've been totally busy with school and family. Guess, being a teenager isn't as easy as it should have been. I know a few people who are single and feel totally lonely. They're almost desperate to find someone to love. I, on the other hand, feel the opposite way. I'm single and feel totally happy just the way i am. I'm perfectly fine with the way things are right now. Really, i do. Perhaps it could be because i've been too busy to actually have the time to feel desperate for love? I don't know. It might also be because i've convinced myself that i don't need anything to do with relationship after having seen so many people suffer while they were in relationships. That might just be it. I'm scared. Scared of getting myself into a relationship. It's the fact that it might be doomed that scares me. In my earlier days, i might have been prepared to face that doom, but i'm no longer prepared. All that bravado has melted away over the years as i watch people i know go through so much agony because of relationships. So i've persuaded myself into thinking that i don't need any relationships. Convinced myself that i'm be perfectly fine with being single.

Of course, this is where i mention how most people are barely able to escape the clutches of love. Or well, in most teenagers' case, what they presume to be love. I, for one, don't think that it's possible to find love at this age. It's impossible. Or at least, almost impossible. Teenagers are still a little behind on the maturity scale to actually find love. What comes at this age is called affection. Or maybe even lust. Either, or. Who knows? It's hard to differentiate the two things when struck by 'em. Whatever it is, i don't think it's wrong to get involved in a relationship, though. It's perfectly fine if both parties don't step out of the line and don't let it affect their studies. A good relationships will definitely bring forth a perfect balance between studies and everything else. Am i even making sense? Okay, never mind. Let's just move on.

So, you're probably wondering what's up with the lecture on what love is and blah, blah, blah. Well, i think i might be feeling that affection for someone. I don't know for sure, but yea. There you have it. However, there's a slight problem. I don't know why, but i just feel like this will never work out. I feel like i'm just way too out of his league. And maybe i am. It's at times like this that i would love to get a few reassurances. A few encouraging words. Of course, no matter what i got, there will always be a question lingering amongst my thoughts. Am i really worthy enough for him?
When you compare him to me, the difference is just so prominent. So evident. Maybe it's best i chucked this feeling away before it grew into something bigger? Because, honestly, i'm not prepared to get my hopes high only to have crushed mercilessly. Remember the phrase "The bigger you are, the harder you fall" ? The bigger this feeling gets the harder it'll fall and crash. Not a good thing. Best if i got rid of it before if grew.. Still, it's easier said then done. However, i'm just gonna try. Who knows? It might be nothing more than just my imagination that had churned up this feeling, right?

Well, i guess that's about it folks. Enough chattery about 'love'. I have ta go before my mom starts shouting at me so that i'll get off the computer (I've been on for hours). Oh and before i go, here are a few songs that i'm recommending for people to hear. They might be old, but they're awesome anyways.

-Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down
-Best I Ever Had by State of Shock
-Innocence by Avril Lavigne
-Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls
-Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
-Love Game by Lady Gaga
-A Total Eclipse Of The Heart ( Glee cast version )
-4 Minutes ( Glee cast version )
-Beth ( Glee cast version )

And finally before i part, i would like to announce officially to the whole world that i'm a total GLEEK. (: Glee is the best show ever. WATCH IT! d: And if you're one of those people who hate Glee, lemme tell you this: You're a sad excuse for a living thing and you can go and jump off a building for all i care. Heee~ Right, i should better go. Bye Bee~

xoxo
Geetha